The weight

During our professional practice time, doctors experience a feeling of inner weight derived from their constant treatment of the suffering and pain of others.  Inevitably, part of the stories, difficulties and miseries that we have to accompany remain stuck in our souls and occupy a remarkable place in the dream and unconscious space of those who listen to them. These days of change of place of consultation I notice it especially. I feel the voices of the thousands of patients that circumstances force me to leave behind to demand an attention that I can no longer provide. On the other hand, I am meeting new patients eager for care after a long time of alternating substitutes and temporary staff.

This constant weight is usually carried in many ways and most of the time we manage not to make it conscious. But this week I feel it especially accompanied by a tension that highlights my own limitation and lightness. The health, safety, sense and hope needs of the people are almost endless, just like mine. It is not easy to welcome and handle them with the attention, compassion and gentleness they deserve. That's why they have weight. If we ever learned to do it properly they would become light and we would walk like children, happy and carefree.
Los médicos experimentamos con los años de ejercicio profesional una sensación de peso interior derivada del trato constante con el sufrimiento y el dolor ajeno. Inevitablemente parte de las historias, difi...